Battered but not broken

In a series of unfortunate events, it's finally broken

All the words I should have said, I've finally spoken
The monkey's freed from my back, and let out of the cage
In the heat of the battle, it spewed all of its rage
I saw so many of your colors, now where's the pot of gold
When I was dealt my final hand, it was my time to fold
I never really knew you, but I guess I know you now
No matter what happens from here, I've taken my final bow
There's no turning back, all I can do is look ahead
I may not have the friend I thought, but this wisdom's mine instead

To others I may be the enemy, but what I know is true
I learned these lessons early enough, and for that I'd like to thank you
Your name is clean and not dressed in mud, and that is where it stays
Whereas mine rests in a gully of lies, thanks to those devilish ways
The question is how can it be, that this is how it ends
But the sad fact is that I have learned, that we cannot be friends
With a war torn world it breaks my heart that someone is so cruel
But I realize now this is my world, to be surrounded by a fool
What's left for me now is to escape, to a place where I am free
I need a place where I can be, everything that's me.